Year in review

     I have been reviewing my old journals, especially the first ones.  It is not a pretty picture,  I am almost in the same position I was then.  That is not entirely true, I did not automatically start to freak out when I started to feel out of breath and tired.  I think that's an improvement, but I still am unsettled.  I want to go and tell the doctor, and get some tests run, but in order to do so I would need to have my sister babysit my two little ones.  I worry that I am ruining their day and putting them out, all because I am anxious over probably nothing.  I feel like I am being a big baby who need to not worry and it will go away.  So far it has not gone away but I live in hope and faith.      My husband's business is not going well he needs to get more business for us to keep afloat, we are thinking of enrolling our eldest son into preschool but the cost is anyway between $189 a month to $300+ a month.  I am not sure if we can afford it right now, but I want him to have a good education.  I do not want to stress out about as well.  We need to work out a budget and stick to it, because our income is shrinking but our bills seem to be growing.   Well I should go it is getting late here.  Have a good weekend everyone!