yay CHRISTMAS!!!

I'm like a kid. I LOVE Christmas and the decorating and the food (yikes) and the crafts and the family in town.  Its awesome! I am feeling more and more like myself, thank God.  We decorated "gingerbread" (graham crackers) houses and put up our tree.  Now if only I could focus on school--that would be great. *sigh* 3 more weeks. Well I completed my miscarriage this week.  A bit traumatic, but I felt the closure.  Before it started I almost had myself convinced that I was still pregnant and the doctor was wrong.  Its pretty crazy what I can talk myself into. Funny if it weren't so sad. (small smile) So our plan is to just live our lives and go from there. We will continue to have unprotected sex but we want to leave it to God's timing. I have no idea what my cycles will be like now so I don't even know where to start--probably better that way.  Honestly I think I scared my DH and BFF with my obsessiveness during our first month TTC. I couldn't help myself. I hope I can turn all that off. I guess we will see. One good thing about all this is that we know that DH's surgery worked--thats AMAZING!! So much money and pain on hubby's part--good to know he is producing sperm and its making its way out. Hope everyone has a great week!