yappity yappity yap.......chatty cathy signing in......xoxoxo

awake since 3 am.....couldn't sleep so i came in here.....next thing i know i'm going through kitchen cupboards.  how crazy is that?  pretty crazy, but i've been wanting to do it for a long time.  part of that endless list of honey wanna dos......i tidied the spices/over the stove cabinet, cabinets on both sides of the oven/microwave......and went through some of but NOT ALL of the pantry.

i have items to donate to the food gift box at church, items for goodwill......trash that needs to hit the curb for TH pick up. 

and then i started making the mothers day help momma to do list as per sara's orders......she said she can be here by 11:45.......so i'm to work in my list lady......as she put it.  made me laugh out loud......we talked about going out to eat or eating here......i won't be able to eat much beyond soup or jello......and there she was offering to grill our meal.......i am such a little carnivore, i love burgers, steaks.....bbq'd chicken.......i went out and picked up yogurt/cottage cheese, peaches, grits, soft white bread (naughty me....)

they are giving me a total deep scale cleaning Friday morning at 10 am, then at noon the dentist is pulling out an upper molar......oh happy day!!!!!!!!! 

hoping to still go to the Mother's Day Luncheon at church, dream big.......right?! right!  it's at noon Saturday and costs $5 a head, Sara can't go, but if possible Debra and I will attend.  i have a bag of tops for Debra to go through.......our taste is very different, but she may like some of the stuff i put in there.  she's a t shirt/leggings girl all the way.......i have never really liked the basic t shirt.....i love cotton just not traditional t shirts......they make me feel like a boxy girl......weird i know, but true.  i'm more girly girl, like pretty tops a lot.  speaking of......after the neuro visit on tuesday i found the prettiest top and danskin capris at the goodwill in snellville....

so let's see, monday was rheumatologist day. sam met me there to help me with my appointment......he was a big help!  we got lunch at steak and shake after, then saw the movie The Avengers, it's a dark movie.......good/lots of action but dark.  i like the GOOD GUYS to win while classic great rock music plays.......!!!  guess i'll have to wait for the next installment of this marvel series!  it's a long movie......started at 3 and let out at 5:45.  this kid asked me what i thought and i said it was wicked weird.........he broke up......said his grandma would never say anything like that........i said she might......don't count her out!!!!!  kids must think we are ancient mariners, but we're still booming babies at heart.......!

i have five cans of glossy white spray paint, two cans of John Deere tractor green paint and one can of black paint......part of the momma day to do list.  asking for help painting outdoor furniture.......the red daisy bench will become John Deere Tractor Green.....a nod to my Iowa roots and to my life in the Georgia countryside.....plan to get help reorganizing the placement of furnishings on the front porch/back patio.  i have a 9' by 12' patio mat in blue and white......once the patio is washed off.....then the kids can put the furniture back once it's painted.  gonna paint the wooden table and chairs glossy white......repaint some side chairs......get the mosaic tile table moved to the back........this is part of the ongoing party plan for summer.  once the two tables are on the back patio i can entertan a foursome or even as many as 6 to 8 if i go completely mad with party happiness.  again dream big and don't lose it when i can't do it all.....again......but hopefully i can if i keep it high on the goals list.

i spoke to Barbara and Olivia, apologised about the dinner that never happened.  feels like i have to try a little harder with Barbara....we talked for a few minutes, then she said she had someone at the door.......probably did, but there is this ongoing wrestling match with my self esteem playing in my head.......i'm working on this, i promise i am.  it's just that she hasn't reached out to me yet........so we'll see.  olivia is more receptive to talking regularly......she's like call me anytime, even if you just want to check in/touch base.  she is very sweet, barbara is a very nice lady, but i don't have the same connection with her as yet.  meanwhile deb and i hope to go to this luncheon at Midway on Saturday........ i can't really eat much, but they always have wonderful inspirational speakers for this event and i need me some INSPIRATION!!!!!!   need it a lot!  helps me to be around women/sisters of faith.  lifts my spirit meter way up!

ummmm, so what else?  next Wednesday is the regular OWLS luncheon at 11:30 followed by BINGO.  i wonder if i can keep up with Bingo players?  we'll see how Wednesday goes, gotta think of something to make for lunch that day........maybe baked angel hair pasta with meat sauce?  and lottsa cheese on top?  hmmmmm, dunno.

Then on Friday, May 18th there is a Barrow County Senior Picnic.....open to all seniors in our area.......gotta find out how to get to the event, told it will be at the ampitheatre in Winder, no clue where that is.......the big problem for me is that it starts at 10 am, ughhhhh, this could be a deal breaker. 

after Bingo on Wednesday Deb asked if I could take her to get her mammogram results, they did the regular mammogram and then an ultrasound on Tuesday......she said there are 3 areas that they are keeping a close eye on, so i'll be praying for her/the results.

it's 5:50 am and the wave of fatigue just hit like a wall of whomp me on the head and lay me down quicko presto!  wow, the same thing happened to me yesterday.  i was puttering along and them whammo, wipe out!!!!!!!!!  it happened while i was at wal mart, just sat there and sat there and sat there some more........i asked the lady at the hair cutting place what it cost to cut bangs and she said come on in and i'll trim them for you at no cost........ahhhh!  that was mighty nice, since my bangs were so long i looked like shaggy the dog!  her name is Emily, she is from Romania and after being a widow for a long time remarried a little while ago..........she never thought she would marry again........she had such a pretty sparkle in her eyes, it's good to see love shining through like that!  her new mate is taking her on a three day adventure for Mother's Day.......that sounds mighty sweet too!  she gave me her card and told me to come back for a hair cut in a few weeks........then on the drive home i realized i hadn't tipped her..........ah jeez. feel like a dope........now i owe her baked goods!  definitely need to say thank you with treats!  money is good too, but i would feel weird walking in there with out treats........she has the prettiest glossy auburn red hair.......! lucky girl!  how do you get hair that glossy?  me jealous as well as admiring! 

so the random hairs are still appearing regularly on my little lady face........it's sick and wrong.  making me a little paranoid......not completely crazed paranoid, just afraid of finding some random long hair on my chin ........while out in public.  please Lord help me with this old lady stuff.........me no likey.  try to be very proactive with the 15X mirror and the tweezers.........and then the other day i found a crazy long hair on the back of my leg just above the back of my knee........that bad boy has been growing for a WHILE!!!!  i try to do a good job......i can't see well enough so i'm doing this on past memories of leg shaving.........i don't envy men that have to shave all the time.  my son grows a really nice beard a few times a year so he can take a break.......my daughter has insanely long legs so shaving her legs is a project!

ok enough random yakking........my holter monitor results turned out fine, there is something happening, but nothing unusual or worrisome.....my heart rate seems to speed up several times a day, but she said not to worry so i won't.  plenty of other things to worry about......meanwhile the rheumy wants me to try a time delayed prednisone called Rayos as soon as i am able.  she gave me a 7 day supply of samples.  i checked this med out, it's INSANELY expensive, several thousand dollars for a thirty day supply, so should it actually work for me, i don't know how i would afford it, it's not covered yet by medicare according to her........I have to wait a couple of weeks after the tooth is pulled before trying it out.  wonder how that will go?  guinea pigs, start your engines!!!! we've gone through lot of this huh!!!!  she wants me to consult with a neurosurgeon regarding the spine issues......and see a pain management specialist.  she wonders if i might be a good candidate for CBD oil?  CBG oil......um, marijuana oil........do y'all know much or anything about this?  i am clueless........so that's on my medical to do list.  meanwhile the neuro recommends that i take two tramadol the next time i get one of those hypnic headaches and see how that works out.........still mad at her, she had me drive all the way over there, it's 45 minutes each way and i was having a really bad day.........i sit another 45 minutes waiting for her, she never apologises, just gives me what i realize if her rare smile, this is her big smile cause she is not the type to apologise for stuff........then she says so your results show you're fine..........so why did i have to drive here and pay you another $50 specialist fee?  not very happy about that.  that's just not right.....she wondered if i had ever been on cymbalta.......now that i think about it, isn't that one of the meds that is pushed at fibromites as being a great solution?  if so, i have tried it, it was another medicine fail along with savella and who knows what else........in the end she said she wouldn't presribe anything new for now, come back in six months.   sigh, she did rule some things out, but she hasn't figured out what is causing the issue either.........

and just for fun and giggles, in the past little while my legs have gone completely numb on me twice.  the first time i was sitting on my blue rolling chair in the kitchen, it took time, prayer and patience but i finally managed to slide on the blue chair onto a dining chair.......eventually the feeling came back.  it was not a very happy situation ......but i got through it.  then big sigh, it happened this week while using the bathroom.  not trying to be graphic here, but i freaked out a bit........finally managed to pull the shower chair out of the tub......and eventually was able to lift myself enough to slide onto the shower chair, finally got the feeling back and thanked God!  the good news is that i had a phone in the bathroom with me, which is not some thing i would normally have with me.......i had forgotten to hang it back up and carried it in there with me, so if i had gotten seriously stuck i could have called someone.......remember the movie with Danny Glover and Mel Gibson.....they are detectives and in one of the movies they did Danny Glover's character has to sit on the toilet while the bomb squad tries to diffuse the situation? well that's pretty much all i could think about while sitting in the bathroom that day.......visions of heaven knows who would have to break in to my house and help me out with my pants around me lady ankles..........please God I don't mean to be a vain duck but this is not a situation i want to be in......not now, not tomorrow, not at all........

then i found out that the lady Debra was taking care of again fell early this week and broke her hip........her name is Virginia, she has Altzheimers, recently suffered a serious problem with her colon requiring surgery and now this........and her poor worried hubby too.......I really feel for them.  He drives a school bus and has been trying to finish up the school year .......and help sort things out for his wife.......she is so confused as it is, but being in the hospital makes her even more disoriented than usual.  need to pray for this couple........

time to lie down........the early birds are singing up a storm.........and hey did i tell you that a tiny little bird built a nest in the pottery feeder outside my kitchen window?  i want to see if there are eggs in there, but don't want to scare off the momma........so tempting, but i gotta be cool!  saw a beautiful red cardinal the other day which made me think of Grace immediately........when she sees cardinals she feels like her parents are stopping by for a visit........so when i saw that pretty bird i thought ahhh, Grace's parents are visiting me...........happy dance!  b-y-e! love you.........hold on to life.  after two weeks of mostly me all by myself with my tv and my cat i am happy to feel not as crappy, that was a rough tough sinus infection........it's still dragging on some but i'm trying to ignore it. 

no blood thinners today or tomorrow........gotta remember to take them out of my daily meds right now.........YAY i REMEMBERED! GO ME!!!!!!! LOL..........LATER Y'ALL!  P.S. Do you watch Dancing with the Stars Athletes Edition or The Voice or American Idol?  I've been watching all three via Hulu.......it's silly fun.......a nice break from all the cop shows i watch!!!! hugs, ruthiebird