Ya, I Get It, You Already Told Us!
Stress stress stress!
I'm dealing with some hard stuff in our relationship right now. I have noticed since I got alot more vocal with Joey, not just telling him what I want but calling him on his bullshit he listens a bit better. Not alot better, just a little. I'm still trying to figure out if I am in an emotionally abusive relationship or not.
I do know I'm in a broke relationship. I lost almost all the kids in the dayhome in a two week swoop. And it's a competitive world out there to get new ones. I have had alot of interviews set up, then bailed on. I have until Friday to get more kids or else I have to find Marlow child care and get a job outside of the home. Unfortunatley house wife doesn't bring alot of indespensible talents to the work force and I'll end up pouring coffee at Tim Hortons!! I have two interviews tomorrow with mums.....fingers crossed....
Plus I missed my period and I have no appetite. I've lost seven pounds in two weeks. And I'm freaking out. I need to go buy a preggo test but without Joey as I don't want to freak him out immensley if it's just a false alarm. And if it's not a false alarm....I'm going to lose it. I don't want to be pregnant. And I feel awful saying that, as so many couples want to and can't. But I DO NOT WANT another child. I'm so content with one. And I'm a mediocre mum at best. I can't handle two.....plus Joey has always been adamant he doesn't want another. I think he will go ballastic if I am. Please please please let it be just stress messing it all up!
And April....HOLY HELL woman. Shut up already! I have tried repeatedly to unsuscribe to her facebook feed....but it keeps coming back! It's all 'I'm crying behind my smile and nobody knows' and 'I laugh because I don't want to seem weak and sob' and 'I'm a better person for my past transgressions but I'm not invincible'. WE KNOW that you are 'crying' and feel like you are a great person because you TELL US EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN day!!! Its NOT a secret! I am so SICK of her posts. She literally floods my wall with her shitty inspirational word photo garbage things. I just want to delete her but that would cause a whole butt load of issues
Phew.....rant done. Thanks :)
I'm dealing with some hard stuff in our relationship right now. I have noticed since I got alot more vocal with Joey, not just telling him what I want but calling him on his bullshit he listens a bit better. Not alot better, just a little. I'm still trying to figure out if I am in an emotionally abusive relationship or not.
I do know I'm in a broke relationship. I lost almost all the kids in the dayhome in a two week swoop. And it's a competitive world out there to get new ones. I have had alot of interviews set up, then bailed on. I have until Friday to get more kids or else I have to find Marlow child care and get a job outside of the home. Unfortunatley house wife doesn't bring alot of indespensible talents to the work force and I'll end up pouring coffee at Tim Hortons!! I have two interviews tomorrow with mums.....fingers crossed....
Plus I missed my period and I have no appetite. I've lost seven pounds in two weeks. And I'm freaking out. I need to go buy a preggo test but without Joey as I don't want to freak him out immensley if it's just a false alarm. And if it's not a false alarm....I'm going to lose it. I don't want to be pregnant. And I feel awful saying that, as so many couples want to and can't. But I DO NOT WANT another child. I'm so content with one. And I'm a mediocre mum at best. I can't handle two.....plus Joey has always been adamant he doesn't want another. I think he will go ballastic if I am. Please please please let it be just stress messing it all up!
And April....HOLY HELL woman. Shut up already! I have tried repeatedly to unsuscribe to her facebook feed....but it keeps coming back! It's all 'I'm crying behind my smile and nobody knows' and 'I laugh because I don't want to seem weak and sob' and 'I'm a better person for my past transgressions but I'm not invincible'. WE KNOW that you are 'crying' and feel like you are a great person because you TELL US EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN day!!! Its NOT a secret! I am so SICK of her posts. She literally floods my wall with her shitty inspirational word photo garbage things. I just want to delete her but that would cause a whole butt load of issues
Phew.....rant done. Thanks :)
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I unsubscribed completely to her as well... I was so tired of the never ending onslaught of flippin\' pictures... Boo-hoo... Woe is me. HA! We\'ve all got problems honey, quit making it seem like yours are \'special\'.
Sorry... lol I\'m in a mood today.