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suposed to find out tomorrow if we can do the chemo and then after that I'm suposed to go to the groip therapy at the hospital but I don't like going to those because all the kids have family with them, some have 2 or 3 people with them and I hate that feeling, its like a stabbing pain my heart, I can actually feel it and then I just want to cry but I can't.i just want to disapere. I haven't been doing the feedings as much as I'm suposed to. I wonder if I stop doing them how long it would take to die and how much it would hurt compared to leting the cancer kill me.
Johns at work and I'm guna tell him we have to talk but I'm scared he might say I need to go but I wouldn't want me around if I was him. he shouldn't have to deal with me but I don't to go to another foster home, there not good and bad things hapen. I just want to disapere.
I really don't feel good today.
Johns at work and I'm guna tell him we have to talk but I'm scared he might say I need to go but I wouldn't want me around if I was him. he shouldn't have to deal with me but I don't to go to another foster home, there not good and bad things hapen. I just want to disapere.
I really don't feel good today.
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