Wow...wtf...

So Im trying to review my journal entries and i cant find any of my previous journals that I wrote!!!!! All of them were deleted!!!! I know it was Malcolm who deleted it because it just so happens all the ones that were deleted were about him!!! Im so fucking pissed right now I think God just gave me the answer to just stop loving this man. I need to keep showing me why I cant be with him. He deletes my pictures of the kids being hurt by him and now my journals!!!!!