Wow long time no anything!!!!

Well this is finals week and I am down to one final in College Algebra left...(sigh), and it's Wed. morning. Next semester will be a breeze for school cause I'll only have two classes all summer, and when you've had a minimum of 4 a semester 2 is nothing. On the flip side though because of Texas education budget cuts (thank you Governer D*&% Perry) the school capped our yearly financial aid amount. So to finish up like we have to I've got to find a job on top of finishing up school, which includes a 40 hr. a week practicum. Then things at home are just turning into a living hell; I've got problems with the way my significant other is treating our children, I have issues that I thought were taken care of two years ago deciding to rear their ugly little head up, and anxiety is one of those ugly little things. So my Psychiatrist decided to start me on an anti-anxiety that's non-narcotic, thank God for a Psych that understands addictions. I am quite literally hanging onto the edge, I feel like I am really close to a mental breakdown. The problem is I just lost my last friend that lives here in town, so I have nobody to really talk to about all this. Akfjazhskjycvhnksjernfiauyshvkjazbrfhab....yes that is all on purpose I just can't type how frustrated I am. I am feeling old urges returning, and not the ones to drink or use. The ones that make me want to put my fist through something or someone. I can't even go do my positive addiction (offroading/rockcrawling)to relieve some of this cause things are so messed up right now. AARRRGGGHHH!!!! Anyways that's why I haven't been on here lately and just needed to vent. Don't really feel any better but oh well.