wow

I had some clarity today and sent a lot of emails to my family members talking about many issues that were on my mind.

It is sinking in how demanding I must be - and I really need to have a lot of feedback from different friends and family members

during the day. I know we all are getting our needs met during the day - so maybe in a way it's normal - but I kind of 'get' that

my need is something formidable. It overwhelms me while I am on my own - and then I have to reach out to my family and friends 

to help me through out the day. Each day is different - so maybe today is a 'high tide'  - man... we may have strengths and weaknesses - needs and desires - but then we have to get on with life anyway.