Worked Today

Today I managed to make it back into work. I'm glad, because it gave me a break from the house. I was only there for 3 hours, but it felt good to get back to some sense of normalcy. I'm still not all there mentally, but I'm getting there. I think once I quit the Neurontin once and for all, that should be good. I know it's going to be a painful process now, but I have to get it out of my system. I don't need to be on it, and I am never going to take it again. Not after what it put me through. Just label it as one of the drugs that I'm allergic to. I might be, with all the pain it put me through. I should have listened to my doctor and stopped it while I still had a chance to get off it without pain. I needed it for the time I was on it, at least part of it, but it was not worth it. I should be able to find another drug that can work. I'm going to keep this short since it's late.
Food today was bad... I was below 900 calories. I just couldn't bring myself to eat any more. And I thought I was being good by having potatoes with dinner, but they didn't have enough calories in them. Well, I did have some Gatorade, so that makes it up to about 1,100. I drink a lot of Gatorade when I'm sick. My stomach is still having problems (still having the runs) so I need the extra liquid anyway. I did good on my liquids today, I drank about 10 cups. Mood today was okay, I guess. I should move my ticker to okay. Sleep last night was okay.... I'm having trouble getting to sleep, but once I'm asleep I'm good. I just got 11 hours and wanted to sleep more, but had to go into work. Stress today was moderate... going back to work was hard, but it's okay. I need to get back to doing harder things.