woke up with questions
I wrote a budget yesterday for myself - in it I considered all expenses I have ..from soup to nuts
every responsibility and indulgence and it felt great to do it! It made me mindful to take care
of myself. I realized that I really want to have a job in addition to living at the monastery to keep -
if but a small - income stream flowing for me. I joined a website for 'remote work' jobs - and
it said to me that "$5.95" was the cost - but it turned out to be over $70 for the amount.
Fraud. I felt like an idiot. So I have to contest this fee. It really knocked me for a loop
and I needed to find my footing again.
After I made the budget yesterday, I’m feeling so much more galvanized, like in my youth about making money and saving.
It's a healthy spirit of taking care of myself and it feels good.
Here at the monastery there’s this kind of blob of togetherness mentality - I shouldn't denegrate it because it has helped me - but it feels scattered and disorganized here sometimes - at least I started to get sucked into that feeling as I started to write this message. So I left this message until a later time- which is now. I want to be self responsible and I want to care for myself. I love Blue - money is not all that I care about - but my soul is being twisted by these questions - and making me feel like I am depraved and entangled inside.
It seems it all starts with a moment of being 'knocked out of grace' - like with the fraud of this web site - that I start to feel out
of control- and I need (I have learned) to 'just remember'- remember what just happened...
remember what I need to do and keep moving forward. Keep on keeping on..
I have chores in a moment - but will snuggle with my Blue for a minute and then get on my way.
Again - I don't know what job I can do with regularity - but I do know that jobs and relationships
are the two things to keep considered. I don't think in terms of professional relationships.
This website that defrauded me, tells me once
again - as if anew- that the relationships I have for professional life are near non-existent -
that maybe - if I were healthy - this might not be an issue.
Agreeing with my doctor - it would be nice to support myself for a life and a significant relationship - but is it 'possible for me?'
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You are not alone, Mark....Nearly everyone I know has been a victim of online fraud of some type, even me but I am much more careful now and when I want to deal with an online person or persons, or company, I will google them and research them to see if there is a record of fraud against such and such and the internet will almost always tell me yes or no.
You can do anything you want. If you feel you have limitations because of your illness, those kind of thoughts might hold you back from doing the things you want to do. I think you can overcome most anything. Never say never because you never know until you try.
I make extra money doing surveys. You have to do alot of surveys before you make any money but if you have free time and you love sharing your opinions then doing surveys is not hard. I have selling accounts with ebay, etsy, amazon, and facebook marketplace. I am selling things that took me years to accumulate. When I started selling on ebay and amazon, I had some old textbooks from my college days and after I sold them all, I discovered that amazon had higher prices them the ebay so I would buy them on ebay and resell them on amazon. I made really good money doing that. If you know the value of things and who to market them to, then you can make top dollar for them. All kinds of ways to make money.
When you bring God into your relationships then they can't help but succeed!
God Bless
thanks for the knowledge and wisdom and encouragement Bob!! Good information!!
You have a significant relationship with yourself. That's a priority and you are rocking it, as you explore more ways to give yourself grace through experiencing the life you are working with and in now.
Thanks Mid!
I've been scammed too, Mark. It's embarrassing, but I'm much more careful now about texts and emails, and phone calls. I get a lot of that junk in my emails and I just delete it all. I'm sure there are some legitimate work from home jobs out there. Maybe check out one of those employment agencies to see if they can help you. Sometimes the company pays the fees so you wouldn't have too.
God bless. Have a great day.
thanks Becky!!