without peace

here i am awake again.  having learned that my husband has lied again and basically never stopped lying.  Lord, y is this my life?  im in so much pain i am becoming numb.  but no peace can i find.  not right now.  theres nothing left 2 say.  nothing i havent sd b4.  nothing that will fix it....and yet i must go on.  that much i know.  but right now without peace.  y lord is this my life. i guess not so numb im crying.  lord lord y.  this is not what u promised me.  a life without peace.  a life where my love is nt appreciated?  a life of discord and without trust?  i believe that u chose this man 4 me....y did u do that? y wld u wish me 2 go through all this pain?  cldnt i have loved u and trusted u without him hurting me over and over again?  lord take this burden off of me.  release me.  deliver me.  remove him from my life and keep me.  amen