wish I never let him back in.... a heartbroken letter.....
So I don't know exactly where to begin with this....What am I suppose to say to you , I'm wrecked and you seem okay????I'm not even sure if you"ll read it but I dont have the strength to call.....You said you didn't intend to hurt me but you did just that.21 years ago you broke my heart.....Since then in past relationships, my pride ,and dignity were diminished, I let you into my life for the second time. I opened my heart, my soul , as you broke through thick impenetrable walls, As Each brick fell ... I felt loved, became more confident , my self esteem was building .... I was your everything.
I thought this was forever .My little bit of self worth you built up is now gone. My spirit broken .Ive never felt so dirty , so low, so unclean . Each of my past relationships took a piece of my soul until little was left. You taking the last of it .
Let me enlighten you on what it feels like to be lost in a depression so deep and be lifted out and told your someones everything......told That I'm your forever.Tell me all of you , wants all of me......... instill peace and love .Rip down wall after wall pulling me deeply into your love.Then twist and rip all of it into tiny pieces .
I want you to know that I love you. I loved you through every emotional rise and fall . Every emotion you have brought into my life now turmoil. and yet I still am in love with you.
You told me to go back to cutting ....Is that in hopes I'll cut too deep??? I mean it would make you happy..... That pleasure I won't give you.......
It really doesn't matter if I will be okay because I never was anything to you . Not 21 years ago and not now.....Just a conquest...I just hope your happy with whoever you found......
And now I'm letting go, You see it doesn't matter if I will be okay because I never mattered anyway to you after all I'm nothing more than a sex crazed whore to you. Pretend I never existed You wanted me to read that letter . You intended to hurt me. You knew by asking me not to read it I would......You meant every word of it. I shared my heart, my soul, my deepest secrets with you.....I gave you my desires .
you nolonger have to see me .This is the last tear I will shed for you ... I deserve a lot better.
Love always
me
I thought this was forever .My little bit of self worth you built up is now gone. My spirit broken .Ive never felt so dirty , so low, so unclean . Each of my past relationships took a piece of my soul until little was left. You taking the last of it .
Let me enlighten you on what it feels like to be lost in a depression so deep and be lifted out and told your someones everything......told That I'm your forever.Tell me all of you , wants all of me......... instill peace and love .Rip down wall after wall pulling me deeply into your love.Then twist and rip all of it into tiny pieces .
I want you to know that I love you. I loved you through every emotional rise and fall . Every emotion you have brought into my life now turmoil. and yet I still am in love with you.
You told me to go back to cutting ....Is that in hopes I'll cut too deep??? I mean it would make you happy..... That pleasure I won't give you.......
It really doesn't matter if I will be okay because I never was anything to you . Not 21 years ago and not now.....Just a conquest...I just hope your happy with whoever you found......
And now I'm letting go, You see it doesn't matter if I will be okay because I never mattered anyway to you after all I'm nothing more than a sex crazed whore to you. Pretend I never existed You wanted me to read that letter . You intended to hurt me. You knew by asking me not to read it I would......You meant every word of it. I shared my heart, my soul, my deepest secrets with you.....I gave you my desires .
you nolonger have to see me .This is the last tear I will shed for you ... I deserve a lot better.
Love always
me
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So sorry you are going through this. I have more problems with anxiety than depression, but they both suck you in. Don\'t give up. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.