Winter time

 4:30pm in the afternoon and it's dark already.  I hate that.  The day was rainy and gray so it was sort dark during the day.  No wonder I'm depressed.  I don't if I'm going to survive this pandemic.  I may not get Covid-19 but the misery it's causing might get me.

I thought about getting one of those sun lights for Seasonal Affective Disorder but my Psychiatric Nurse Practioner said it was a bad idea because they tend make bipolars manic.  I don't know.  I don't want to do anything could make me manic.  It takes almost all my energy to do simple things.  It's so frustrating.

When Covid-19 appeared it was spring.  It was sunny and beautiful.  The daffodils were bloomming.  I was really looking forward to spring.  Then the virus hit and much was taken away from us.  And it's dragged on for so long.  I glad vaccine has come out and are working on getting it to everyone.  That's a lot of people to vaccinate.