Winding down

Just one more little thing and the semester is done. So far, all A's and I'm proud. It's just that I can feel the winding down, like it will be hard to muster thru the last little moment. It's been busy, but feeling it's not all getting done :). I have been having a lot of honest moments with myself. I haven't slept enough. I keep rewriting my response to my brother as I try to sleep. It is like the culmination of the semester, of the N, of my childhood has come to this moment. A moment of realization, I think. Of coming into my own. It's a bit like it all fell into place. I confronted myself in ways I never have before, allowed the truth. I confronted childhood, along with my brother's bitterness, I somehow found my peace. I confronted the N reappearing and even though pings of this and that do linger, saw he no longer had any power.

I am reminded a bit of the very first anthropology lecture. It doesn't matter if a tree falling in the forest makes a sound or not, it only matters if someone is there to give meaning to it happening.

This is where I am. Ready...for a new semester, new chapters and new meanings.