Will it ever be the same?

Sometimes I wonder... will my marriage ever be the same?  Will I ever be able to watch her take off her shirt without imagining her doing it on a webcam for someone else?  Will I ever make love to her without laying there afterwards wondering if it was with him? Thinking about it is so disheartening :(  I feel like my life has been permanently changed...  That I am just desperately hanging onto a dream that will never again be real.  I don't know what about the affair was a lie, and what really happened.

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I know how you feel. I thought my marriage was a wonderful, solid thing. I thought we had a bond that many people didn\'t. Now, I feel like it will never be the same. And I\'m mourning that loss. I feel for you. Hang in there, M! I think those thoughts and hurts will ease with time. I hope it does!