will it ever
Will it ever be enough that I feel good just being me? When will I feel I don't have to prove myself and worth to others? Why can't I ever just be happy just being me? I love being able to help other be happy and find the freedom to just "be". Be themselves, happy with good enough and not having to do it all for everyone, why don't I cut myself the same slack? Why don't I ever feel good enough? Why do I feel like I am always self-sabotoging my own life? Like I just get to the point where everything is going to work out and then I do something to screw it up? Why do I feel the need to help everyone else, but I don't feel like I deserve the help?
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I guess one question would be, why are you so harsh and judgmental of yourself. It sounds to me that you are dealing with something inside yourself that you have blocked or somehow experienced and have not dealt with it. Always feeling we have to prove our worth to others kind of indicates there is something wrong inside.
I dealt with this due to my twin brother always being praised and being a "good little boy" and being asked ":why can't you be like your brother"!!!! Nothing I did made me acceptable in my mother's eyes. I took the destructive way of getting attention, for many years. I finally realized I was me, I was different than my brother and it was ok. I taught myself to be acceptable to me and that was fine.
sorry puddler....hugs bill