why up so early? sat feb 11,2012 9.30 a.m.

well blow me down, i was up at 6 A.M. TODAY why? its a little snow on ground outside so glad i got took to store yesterday. didnt get enough but thats ok, did very little in room or anyting yesterday. did go out  to store and got some HEALTHY FOOD thank god. i crave it. its a house of junk here. i could realy gain all the weight back then the fall would have been for nothing, that was the best part of the ordeal. sis coming out today. think bro in law misses watcheing the bad movies w/ me. son is sleeping in his room. went out drinking AGAIN last night. he is not looking good at all. glad he went to his rooom so i dont desturb him. see, this is why i stayed gone so long. i feel l.ike im drowning in crap in this apt. i try and i try. oh well will get back on later.........