Why Today?
I ask myself that same question almost everyday....some days are much harder than others...well...today is gonna be a beast...it has been a beast since i opened my eyes...the overwhelming sadness that makes my stomach feel sick...my mind feel blank...the tears come so fast and hard...I HATE IT!!!
I find myself having a personal meltdown and I have to work...sitting here staring at the walls in my office praying that no one will walk in......"how are you today"...oh jeez...do they really want to know???
I will not give in again...I just want today to hurry up and end so I can go home!
Looking for a little relief from this wave in the morning....love you all so much...thanks for listening once again to the ramblings of a sad old woman.
Walking beside you always...
Jacqueline PLH
I find myself having a personal meltdown and I have to work...sitting here staring at the walls in my office praying that no one will walk in......"how are you today"...oh jeez...do they really want to know???
I will not give in again...I just want today to hurry up and end so I can go home!
Looking for a little relief from this wave in the morning....love you all so much...thanks for listening once again to the ramblings of a sad old woman.
Walking beside you always...
Jacqueline PLH
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It is so hard, when these days happen, to work, as usual. I always worked in the public. And to have to smile, when your heart is breaking, is just too much. Thinking of you and wishing you some peace. Gay
yes those days just hit and yoiu feel like your going insane. hope you feel better today (((grief is a life long process))))) warm hugs zz/mary ann
yes those days just hit and yoiu feel like your going insane. hope you feel better today (((grief is a life long process))))) warm hugs zz/mary ann
fortunately I usually have these days, half a day at a time. sometimes it doesn\'t last long, at all. I try to distract my mind, and am careful not to allow hunger or nerves to get involved with it. Pain causes more sadness and visa-versa. So i do try to stay medicated and rested. remember, things change, we can\'t force it too, but things do change. i wish I had the control, the driving wheel on my emotions, but I sincerely just have to roll through them, don\'t we all. Sorry it\'s been a bad day for you. Hoping that soon you\'ll see things differently, the light will change, and your heart will lift.