Why stay?

God what do you want me to do? I am sad because my daughters boyfriend is here and they are sleeping together. I feel so aweqward. When she leaves what am I gonna do? I benefits end in December. I do not know how I will support myself? I do not know who I am and what I am suposed to be doing here on earth? My daughter has lost faith in the church and in you. This is so painful!!! I keep trying to get drunk to avoid feeling lonely.