Why I never clean my room
My dad hates the mess in my room. I know it. he has an obsession with tidiness. Three years ago,he used his savings to refurbish the house, to make his dream come true.
Now, the trouble is, I am very messy. I clean my room just to make more room for my rubbish, clothes, books whatever. So the refurbished house looks like a wasteland even after all the investment.
Now, I could show some kindness and respect and clean my room! Not such a great effort, especially since my idea of cleaning is just trowing away what i don't need anymore(unlike mom who has piles of old newspapers and yoghurt cans).
But, what I don't like is the fuss he makes about it and the offensive words he uses to express his disatisfaction towards my behaviour.
He makes it quite obvious, by means of gesture and the way he rolls his eyes, that he is not the proud father of a bright daughter.
What also bothers me is how he always looks at the way I dress and lets out some weird annoyed sounds that get on my nerves!! As if I was wearing some goth scary leather straps . But no! his problem is that i dress plain. That I am not 'like the other girls, 'elegant and sophisticated'.
I understand that he has some expectations but I just don't like the way he acts and that he can be quite offensive sometimes. I never tell him anything personal anyway I just ask for money because I don't have a choice now.
But I would really really like to find a way to allow myself be kinder and clean the freaking room and just do what i am told just for the sake of the other person...I guess I just don't want to see him happy and proud after the way he behaved.
I am lost here.
Now, the trouble is, I am very messy. I clean my room just to make more room for my rubbish, clothes, books whatever. So the refurbished house looks like a wasteland even after all the investment.
Now, I could show some kindness and respect and clean my room! Not such a great effort, especially since my idea of cleaning is just trowing away what i don't need anymore(unlike mom who has piles of old newspapers and yoghurt cans).
But, what I don't like is the fuss he makes about it and the offensive words he uses to express his disatisfaction towards my behaviour.
He makes it quite obvious, by means of gesture and the way he rolls his eyes, that he is not the proud father of a bright daughter.
What also bothers me is how he always looks at the way I dress and lets out some weird annoyed sounds that get on my nerves!! As if I was wearing some goth scary leather straps . But no! his problem is that i dress plain. That I am not 'like the other girls, 'elegant and sophisticated'.
I understand that he has some expectations but I just don't like the way he acts and that he can be quite offensive sometimes. I never tell him anything personal anyway I just ask for money because I don't have a choice now.
But I would really really like to find a way to allow myself be kinder and clean the freaking room and just do what i am told just for the sake of the other person...I guess I just don't want to see him happy and proud after the way he behaved.
I am lost here.
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