why do I have to undermine myself
I went to my parents house last night - and it was difficult - but I came home
and did my thing again - I am waking up now, well I've been up for a few hours.
I am trying to take ownership of my day and trajectory in life. I am tempted to
get a little bit of a superior attitude, as the wind beneath my wings so to speak
- but I also know that each of ours realities "both
my parents and mine" are just as real as those of each others...if that makes sense. I can
be proud of what I like though and feel heartened by how I am taking care of things.
I undermined myself just now which crushed my sense of memory about what I wanted to write.
But I will take care of my morning and day and keep on keeping on....
with things that I hope to do. I need to think about that.... and be contented in the way I handle things. We each have a set of relationships which we're challenged to deal with and so again ill follow through and be contented by the way I handle them and hold tight. Keep on keeping on.
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I’ve also got to remind myself that if I’m in distress I have got to find answers or actions and not just focus on the distress.
Big hug sweetie.... I'm sorry to read that you didn't have a good time at your folks last night.... I know that you struggle and I think you have a lot of courage and insight my friend.... Another hug of peace and support... xo
thanks Janet! (((hug)))
in my own case, i believe more and more that undermining is part of my questioning compulsion (god given gift?). to question is to doubt. to doubt is to undermine. questioning is far too entertaining --and sometimes even useful-- a process to give up entirely, so i opted to insert generous helpings of tolerance and compassion.
Thanks Arfie!!