why do i bother

i am such a social outcast i dont know why i bother trying to fit in anywhere... What the heck is wrong with me????????? why dont people want to include me???????maybe because I seem so happy by myself????? but im not....i need company...i need people...I crave to be wanted....what am i suposed to do????????????? everyone thinks Im weird...huh an understatement really...Im crazy...psychotic...think ill stop there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!