Why am I feeling good

Ladies, yes it is possible for a man and a woman to be friends.  We all have loves in life that are the FIRST one and usually it ends badly.  Same for me and that the lady involved was, and is, the most beautiful I have ever known is a burden to bear.  After time and different decisions, she went her path and I am on mine.  Marriages and different worlds.  Through a university yearbook we reconnected and then came September 11, 2001.  She fell apart and said she almost lost me.  We met twice seven years ago for a re-gathering of souls and delightful conversation.  Then we drifted apart and time and the gods seemed intent on preventing any further meetings.  Until today.  From 1:30 to 4:30 we shared a long lunch and conversation at Outback, traded sooo many stories and laughs and pain.  Then came time to depart back into our worlds.  Outside she collapsed and for the moment the world stopped - we held each other and after all of this time, I told her I loved her and she replied in kind.  We are friends but share a deeper well of life and alternatives that should have been but never are nor will be.   We are now back in our lives and already I miss her but she is with me always and I with her. So ladies, here is a romatic soul for another century.  Shoot me dead now and I could die a happy man.  I have held a distant love from ages past and told her I love her.  Life cannot get much finer than that.