why

As of right now I'm just super pissed at myself. During dress rehersle for a musical I'm in, my body for real said "Lets have a panic attck during a scene!" and proceeded to have two paic attacks. Now my anxiety is through the roof cause what if that happens during a show? And it's been awhile since I had a panic attack, yet another reason I'm really mad at myself.

I can not handle this amount of stress right now