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Thursday, 11-20-08:  It is getting cold again....I hate it!  Tonight it will be in the teens.  Life seems to be even harder when it is cold!  Even going outside is a journey....coat, gloves, shoes, etc. YUCK!   Thanksgiving is one week from today.  Last year I spent it in bed.  Really.  This year my Mom wants to buy a prepared meal for us.  I am good with that.  I have NEVER done that before but it is a step....  It will include all the yummies plus I will make my extra special items.  My kids may not be thrilled but...oh well....!  I will be cooking for Christmas.  I am all about the easy for this holiday.    I have not been on for a while.  I have been quite sick.  Off/On.  This past Monday I went to the doctor and I was just this side of pneumonia.  I was off work M/T/W.  I went back today but had to leave early for an appt. I scheduled a month ago.  I had cervical polyps removed.  OUCH!  I am taking off tomorrow, as was scheduled.  I could probably go but I am having some pretty stout cramps.  They are much like contractions.  I will have the lab results next wk.  Had the one polyp been just a bit bigger, I would've had to go to out-patient surgery.  Thank goodness it wasn't.  So, I will take tomorrow off, sleep, clean, whatever I feel like. I really don't care. I have sure had a rough time this second year.  It has been a few days over 17 mos. since Scott died.  In so many ways it is so much harder.  For example....I am going to start using my Total Gym.  I love the thing.  However, Scott used it the day before he died.  It is still set on his setting.  I will have to change it....his is HIGH....mine is LOW!  That is no big thing in and of itself.  It is just one more thing changed that will never be the same.  Crazy, huh?  On the other hand, Scott wanted me to start working out with him, so I think he would be glad I am going to.It just hurts so much he isn't here to "make fun of me".  He would've teased me about being such a light-weight.  I miss him so, so much!  My heart aches.  My stomach aches.  And, my head always hurts! I heard from my author friend.  He liked what he read of my manuscript and sent me the name/address of where to send it.  I still have a lot of work to do.  Wouldn't that be something?  Me?  A published author.  It has been my lifelong dream.  However, this book is only here because my son died.  It is truly bittersweet.  I would take Scott back in a mili-second vs. being published!  Of course, one hasn't happened and the other never will. I have once again joined the Secret Santa thing at work.  I like it.  It is a nice distraction.  This year it is someone I know and really like.  The thing is, it will require an extra effort on my part.  She is Jewish.  I know quite a bit about that, although I am not.  In any case, I have been doing research on Jewish customs of Hannuka. (sp?) And Adam has a close Jewish friend so I have been asking her for gift advice.  We are on a VERY strict spending amount.  It will require me REALLY thinking and that is good. Yet another distraction.... To all of you who have kept up with me in spite of my being reclusive, thank you.  To you, and all the rest,......Peaceful wishes!