WHO I AM!

I'm ashamed of myself...Both for trying to change DS andtrying to share some suuprt  But I'm more hurt that Ive been a member for almost 2 years and nobody believs me. ... I'm am so scared right now because I feel like I have no one. All this time I'm being told that I can find support in DS...I have never thought about suiced until I met this person, talking to her for a few days brought it out of me. I should have been able to see what she was doing to me. I have batteled depression for too long. but i was strong. and now im dying on the inside. i have lost any sense of worth. all I feel like doing is curling up in a ball and crying. Nobody remembers who I am. Nobody remebers when I dropped out of college... When I finally went back. nobody remembers my poetry... OR MY RIDDLES.... nobody remembers all the hugs i gave...both randomly or for support... or what about my abusive EX boyfriend?I'm invisible... Then whats the point of living?