why do I, why can't I
it seems like I am always struggling with some thought, idea or feeling...
like an embattlement that keeps me company or occupied or somehow
I don't know how to talk about it.
If I could put the kind of enthusiasm, and energy and focus on
an external goal in my life, I could really acheive something more.
It is so strange. From Chaos to order (mentally each day)...and from
confusion to some kind of continuity that yields fruit...and not just spiritual
or emotional... I just hope I find something to let the forces loose on!
My future awaits!! :-)
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Your recent meanderings on chaos have returned me to a wandering wonder I have flirted with many times over the years. Chaos Theories. Thank you. Don't ask me to explain how, but even though the mathematics of the Chaos Theories still elude me, somehow they help me find a balance between my cravings for order and control and the chaos between my ears and the world outside my neatly kept control zone.
One of those random brain farts I get so often prompts me to send you an invitation to meander along.
https://fractalfoundation.org/resources/what-is-chaos-theory/
Thanks Arfie I will look at this!