who am i to judge
I've always lived my life with a 'who-am-i-to-judge" attitude, i apply that to most things people tell me and i whole heartedly believe it, Because with all the things ive done wrong in my life i am in no position to judge people who choose to confide in me, in saying this... when does it go from having that attitude to losing your opinion.
I've always felt that i should never be too out there, like some of my friends used to say, "you'd better love me" or "you HAVE to come" i never said those things, i always felt like, oh, what if they really dont love me or dont want to be around me... maybe id push them too far...so i bought my "who am i to judge" attitude and turned it to "what right do i have to control them"
then my bf comes to me today(joking i assume now) and goes " im going to blow a guy tomorrow okay?" and i sorta went O.O "um okay?" because i dont relly have a problem with that, im a girl... if he wants to blow a guy i dont realyy see it as cheating, he told me and hes messing with a guy... :S. he seemed shocked when i said yes and todl me it was cheating and i was like "oh? i dont really have a prob unless it was a girl then id tell u fine... but your not coming home to me" another incident was when he wanted to do movember, and i HATE facial hair but i told him he could do it it was fine by me if it was something he wanted to do. he once again was shocked and said "but your ment to say noooo dont!" at whih point i told him id love nothing more than to do that... but why should i control him like that"i dont know, i just dont understand the line from controlling a person to losing my opinion... i believe i tend to sit there and support them even if i think its the wrong decision. and if it turns to shit just be there for them. in saying this... when its a decision that will get them hurt i tell them what i think and tell them im there for them 100% no matter what. :S idk any more... just a little over everything, im over the nausea, the headache, the vomitting, eveyrhting, im tired. i just want to curl up for a while.
im considering making my journals open just for me... should i?
I've always felt that i should never be too out there, like some of my friends used to say, "you'd better love me" or "you HAVE to come" i never said those things, i always felt like, oh, what if they really dont love me or dont want to be around me... maybe id push them too far...so i bought my "who am i to judge" attitude and turned it to "what right do i have to control them"
then my bf comes to me today(joking i assume now) and goes " im going to blow a guy tomorrow okay?" and i sorta went O.O "um okay?" because i dont relly have a problem with that, im a girl... if he wants to blow a guy i dont realyy see it as cheating, he told me and hes messing with a guy... :S. he seemed shocked when i said yes and todl me it was cheating and i was like "oh? i dont really have a prob unless it was a girl then id tell u fine... but your not coming home to me" another incident was when he wanted to do movember, and i HATE facial hair but i told him he could do it it was fine by me if it was something he wanted to do. he once again was shocked and said "but your ment to say noooo dont!" at whih point i told him id love nothing more than to do that... but why should i control him like that"i dont know, i just dont understand the line from controlling a person to losing my opinion... i believe i tend to sit there and support them even if i think its the wrong decision. and if it turns to shit just be there for them. in saying this... when its a decision that will get them hurt i tell them what i think and tell them im there for them 100% no matter what. :S idk any more... just a little over everything, im over the nausea, the headache, the vomitting, eveyrhting, im tired. i just want to curl up for a while.
im considering making my journals open just for me... should i?
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Not just open for you. There are a lot of people who want to know if or that you are okay.
If they wnated to know they could call, i jsut feel benign sometimes, stalking fbs and shit to find out what ppl been up to when i could call them and say hey
People are becoming more and more dependant on the internet, facebook, twitter, msn, yahoo etc nowadays - we\'re all guitly of it. Guess it\'s just a fast way of getting to know whats up sorta deal