White Windy Monday
There is noting green here in Calgary today. It is snowing and blowing. It is nice to be inside warm and cozy.
Smile #1: We put up a tree for the first time since Lisa died, and decorated the condo. It felt right this year. The cat immediately had a nap under the tree. So far she hasn't ripped any of the decorations off it.
Smiley #2: I had a long chat with Cevyn. She is a joy.
Smiley #3: We spent last evening with our good friends and neigbours. We celebrated Lisa. We laughed and I cried. We felt her there with us. She loved getting together with friends and family.
Angel days don't really get easier for me but I now know what I must do to get through them. I spent yesterday morning crying and mourning the loss. In the evening we did what I am sure Lisa wanted us to do.
So now we look towards Christmas.
I wish my SOTH a week filled with peace and love.
Smile #1: We put up a tree for the first time since Lisa died, and decorated the condo. It felt right this year. The cat immediately had a nap under the tree. So far she hasn't ripped any of the decorations off it.
Smiley #2: I had a long chat with Cevyn. She is a joy.
Smiley #3: We spent last evening with our good friends and neigbours. We celebrated Lisa. We laughed and I cried. We felt her there with us. She loved getting together with friends and family.
Angel days don't really get easier for me but I now know what I must do to get through them. I spent yesterday morning crying and mourning the loss. In the evening we did what I am sure Lisa wanted us to do.
So now we look towards Christmas.
I wish my SOTH a week filled with peace and love.
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Marlene your day sounded as good as it could be...and that is something special. I love how you said that you put up the tree and decorated and that it felt right this year. That is what each mom needs to know...that when it feels right for them then it IS right. Thank you for sharing your White Windy Green smiley day..love and hugs...Karen
Good for you Marlene! And good for your cat (so far!). Thank you for sharing this with me. Thank you for letting me know that this is the first year you put up a tree as I am struggling greatly and just can not do it this year. Thank you for letting me know, through your journal that it\'s ok and maybe, just maybe the day will come when it feels right for me to put one back up.
You give me hope.
love and hugs and warm thoughts for your Alberta weather! ...Merrilee
Marlene, enjoy Christmas and beauty and feeling it is right this year. And Cevyn is such a wonderful young woman, isn\'t she? Your daughter poured good stuff into her and raised a great kid.
I feel the same..angel days are still horrible but I too am learning what makes them bearable. I have my moments of crying & then have my moments of reveling in lovely memories. Gentle hugs and love to you and Lisa, Linda
please keep that white stuff blowing around up there.... not ready for snow here yet.... your day sounds great,,,,, love ya!
Happy to hear you\'re giving yourselves pleasure. Our children don\'t want to see us grieving all the time. Thank G--d we still have some children to love. Love is all that makes sense lately. It\'s still green here and you\'re welcome to visit! San Diego has lots of sunshine, and our Hanukah candles are burning bright. Love, Abby
I sense comfort and peace of heart in this journal. Enjoy your Christmas tree. I use to love watching our cats play with the ornaments. They are so much fun to watch.
Namaste,
Terry
I am so happy for the joy in your journal and all the blessings of your granddaughter, just perfect. Hugs. Kathy
I love that you had a day that became \"a full circle.\"
Sending love to you,
Leda
Marlene, it sounds nice and cozy! Enjoy!
I understand about doing what feels \"right\" each year and allowing it to guide our choices. It all feels that way for you dearest Marlene and you are SO wise to listen to your inner counsel and do just that.
We are having our first big snow of the season in the valley and I\'m right with you. Grateful to be able to be cozy and warm and not to have to get out and drive in it today.
Feeling the shifts of healing within you and knowing the energy and time this takes on this grief path. You are living your life now and give SO much of yourself. May you also receive tenfold the same loving care. :)
Love to Lisa and always to her amazing and so very colorful mum! :) (I would love to take a peek in that closet of yours as I adore your style and gorgeous colors that you wear.) You are a \"fashionista!\" :)
XO Joanie
So glad that you found reasons to smile!!
My cat is doing the very same thing! So glad you were able to put up your tree this year and find joy in it ~ Joanna x
Thank you all for your loving messages. I don\'t think Angel Days get easier. But now I plan for them. It gives me a wee feeling of control. I love you all and your precious children.
No it never gets easier but we do find coping mechanisms to help us make it through.
It is good that you celebrate your memories, it will keep Lisa close to the heart.
I have been thinking alot about Mike his Angel date is 12/20 . I would love to know what it would be like if he were here now how things would be so different BUT it is not . Keep the faith Marlene we will make it with each other.
Hugs Penny