When did I get here..?

when did I get here to this point in my life...? When did I get so lost..? I feel so alone in this world. How dose one find themselves? How dose one search. I look in the mirror everyday and I don't recognize my face...you have controlled how I feel about myself for so long that I don't even know how I feel about me...I can't even feel anything anymore. I don't know how to feel. You have put me in so many bad positions that I can't even talk about it. You were suppose to protect me. And you... you were suppose to be there for me...and YOU.. you call yourself my best friend but their is no friend bone in your body.

so today I end this day with a new beginning...with the weights lifted off my heavy shoulders. And I will turn to a new day. A NEW ME...