Whats missing
i cant figure it out, why am i here, not so much on this website but on this planet, why am i here. It started off bad got worse then worse still then better then worse again, got good, and bad at once, now in a holding pattern of who knows, that last sentence sums up my life from birth til now,
i feel things and i dont know how to understand it, i dont know what i am missing inside but it does weird things to me that i know it should not, i get feelings for people i dont know like i have known them for years and they are by best friends when truthfully i barely know them, i know why i do it, but i dont know WHY. is it because as a kid i was abused and bullied now i yearn for caring, i dont know but its weird and i am starting not to like it but i cant live without doing it
i feel things and i dont know how to understand it, i dont know what i am missing inside but it does weird things to me that i know it should not, i get feelings for people i dont know like i have known them for years and they are by best friends when truthfully i barely know them, i know why i do it, but i dont know WHY. is it because as a kid i was abused and bullied now i yearn for caring, i dont know but its weird and i am starting not to like it but i cant live without doing it
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I know what you mean hon.. I feel these same feelings that you do sometimes. I question why i am here and i also feel like i am missing something. Yes i do think its the fact that you went through abuse as a child and your looking for that acceptance and love from others. I also went through a form of abuse growing up and it has changed me and sometimes i dont like the person it has made me. A non-trusting person. but these things in life do change us. So the best advice is to try to change what you dont like but also just accept the person you are. You are a kind person so please dont beat yourself up over it..