Whats going on today...
Today has just been an awful day. I sat here in my apartment all by myself. I have been searching for a new job. I have realized that i need to find a stable job that i can support my family with and actually be there for them. No more night jobs. I have not done my daily reading so far, as I have been looking for a job. i hope and pray that i can get something i like to do and get paid to do it. Anybody out there reading this, please continue to pray for me and Sarah. Thank you!
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Hey, look, you\'re doing your best at a terribly difficult time in your life. You are dealing with the terrible experience of separation, as are so many of us on this site, and in addition, you have the stress of PTSD and the need to find a job to support your family. Being alone all day is stressful too. I\'m old enough to be your mother, and I\'m relying on one good friend to help me get through my difficult days by just being here with me for a while so I don\'t feel alone. If you don\'t have a friend who is close enough by to do that for you, please know that we on this list are here for you, even though we aren\'t physically present. If I could stop by your house with a dinner for you, I would -- but I can\'t, so I\'m writing to you instead and urging you to feel the support we ca all give each other.
You and I come from different faiths I believe, but prayer is prayer, and its a big part of my life. Tonight you are in my prayer for healing -- include me in yours, please, because I really need it.
SarahLeah2
I so agree with all the Sarahleah has said.
It is so very hard trying to get through all of this alone, so please know that you are not alone in spirit even if you are alone in person.
Give yourself credit, you are going through so much and quitting smoking on top of it all. So the withdrawl symptoms are no doubt adding to the lousy way you feel.
Even those of us who aren\'t dealing with everything that you are, maybe only half of it, also have really bad days. Sadly it is just par for the course with what you are dealing with.
I hope you managed to have a good nights sleep and that today dawns to a better day. I pray that you manage to find a really great and inspiring job, so that you can feel better about yourself and about being able to support your family. My prayers are with you and Sarah.