What the @#@$ have I got myself into!!!!
I wish I were a little birdy and just fly away !!! Nowhere special, just a place without stress. Now I wonder where that might be, um?? I’m a tad down right now. I pray to God it does not get any worse or He gives me the strength to cope with all of this hullabaloo in my life right now. It amazes me and depresses me that not so many years ago I could face any challenge that came my way. I actually went out of my way to create them. Now everything requires so... much effort!!!! The selling of the house situation has really got me on pins and needles. I’m back and forth, am I doing the right thing or not. One minute I’m all excited about it, the next minute I’m crying. Go figure !! One of the reasons I’m upset is that my hubby, that I love dearly, has been working until 7 at night so he does not get home till 8. Then at the end of July he leaves for Maine for the blueberry harvest. This leaves me all alone to handle EVERYTHING !!!! I’m not sure if I can handle all the stress and demands. If this house sells while he’s away, it will be up to me to pack up, get a mover, take my more fragile things myself ( hopefully with the help of some friends ).Then there is my daughter, she has had a MAJOR meltdown. She will be off work for about two weeks. This is not helpful as she will have no wage and she will lose hours towards her employment insurance. The doc put her on Celexa and Adavan. Sure hope this works, she was a mess, suicidal etc. I’m worried sick !!!! As many of you know she is my adopted daughter ( 4 mos. ). We have kept in touch with all of her mother’s side of the family. Most of the females have some form of depression. The genetic thing!Anyway, guys, thanks for letting me vent. Sometimes this is the only place I can go to REALLY express my inner self. Thanks for that, friends. Be on line when I can. Be well and may you find a smile in your day. Debbie
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Awwe, Debbie, I wish I could take the stress away, But it\'s not like I\'m miss stability myself. Selling your house is a HUGE deal. I hope everything goes okay. If I were up there, I would help you move. Sometimes moving can be exiting. The decorating of a new home is always fun -I think anyway- But the losing of the other can suck too. Anyway, I hope it goes well for you.
I wish I was close by to help you move. Moving is a big challenge. Will the people from your church help you? You can only do the very best you can. Take each day as it comes. Work through one problem at a time. Take care and rest when you can. Big Hugs ~~~~Suzanne
Thanks for the verbal support. I love to decorate but this is a sad time for me because I do love my home. My kitchen was just completely renovated. I\'ll try to get a few pics up before I have to leave it behind, sniff. Debbie
I remember the stress I had before moving here! Should I, shouldn\'t I? What about Aaron, will he like Kitchener? ect,ect It\'s really stressful!!
I wouldn\'t be any
help for you,not with this fibro. I\'m like a bull in a china shop some days!!LOL
That is going to be tough with hubby away, but I have confidence in you, you can do this, you really can!!!!!
Yes, there are always things you miss about your old home, but once your settled in your new home you\'ll be happy and proud of yourself for doing it ALL!
I hope Danielle come through this depression quickly. When it comes to our kids we worry too much but you can\'t just turn off those motherly feelings, they go too deep.
Take care my dear friend,
hugs Cathy
Cathy your right on in everything you said. The moving will be tough. Right now I am more worried about seeling our present house. I am also majorly consented abnout my daugther\'s mental state. Debbie
Debbie, its been a long time and I am sorry I havent kept up. I do understand your stress with moving and children that are struggling, but please remember that you have to take care of yourself. One step at a time and focus on one thing at a time. I know that is easier said than done but necessary for us. I am dealing with alot of stressful things myself right now and feel as you do that I wish I could be a bird and fly away some where. I call that my flight mode. But, we both know it wont make anything go away. It just sometimes helps to imagine it. Smile. I will pray for you and I know you can get through it. It does sometimes seem like we weaken with age and everything comes all at once instead of in small bites. I guess that is just life. Be constantly vigilent of your health and take care of you. Try not to anticipate doing it all yourself and get your recruits in order so you have the help you need when the time comes. Luv and hugs