What the @#@$ have I got myself into!!!!
I wish I were a little birdy and just fly away !!! Nowhere special, just a place without stress. Now I wonder where that might be, um?? I’m a tad down right now. I pray to God it does not get any worse or He gives me the strength to cope with all of this hullabaloo in my life right now. It amazes me and depresses me that not so many years ago I could face any challenge that came my way. I actually went out of my way to create them. Now everything requires so... much effort!!!! The selling of the house situation has really got me on pins and needles. I’m back and forth, am I doing the right thing or not. One minute I’m all excited about it, the next minute I’m crying. Go figure !! One of the reasons I’m upset is that my hubby, that I love dearly, has been working until 7 at night so he does not get home till 8. Then at the end of July he leaves for Maine for the blueberry harvest. This leaves me all alone to handle EVERYTHING !!!! I’m not sure if I can handle all the stress and demands. If this house sells while he’s away, it will be up to me to pack up, get a mover, take my more fragile things myself ( hopefully with the help of some friends ).Then there is my daughter, she has had a MAJOR meltdown. She will be off work for about two weeks. This is not helpful as she will have no wage and she will lose hours towards her employment insurance. The doc put her on Celexa and Adavan. Sure hope this works, she was a mess, suicidal etc. I’m worried sick !!!! As many of you know she is my adopted daughter ( 4 mos. ). We have kept in touch with all of her mother’s side of the family. Most of the females have some form of depression. The genetic thing!Anyway, guys, thanks for letting me vent. Sometimes this is the only place I can go to REALLY express my inner self. Thanks for that, friends. Be on line when I can. Be well and may you find a smile in your day. Debbie
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