What's the point

I really don't understand how I go on day to day. I've really had it and want to throw in the towel, but, I can't do that to my little girl. It seems like I have no right to feelings, I get treated like I'm stupid and don't know anything. Nobody has any interest in what I have to say. It's just look pretty and shut-up basically. Antidepressants or any kind of medication does not help me. It's like I'm medication resistant! There are so many times almost everyday that suicide pops in my head and that I should have succeeded when I was young, before having my kids. I feel like I can't do it anymore, just wanna be left alone. I can't do that to my little girl though, she still needs me. I'd just like all the B.S, biasness, stupidity, and everything else to end already. I have been asked by a few strangers why there are so many angels around me. I don't know but obviously it'll be a very long time they stay by my side. Why does my life have to be so difficult and hurt so much?!!!