What's going on with me...
Ok. Ran back to my dad's place to take care of a few things in town, got my car's tires balances, oil change, ran some errands for my dad, called a few places over my grandma's passing, called and checking in on my grandpa (he's doing well on his own) and had to go to Sams club to stock up on somethings. Only been here a few days and tomorrow I got to go back to my grandpa's for a few days. Just to hang out and then I will probably leave for TX to see friends and family. Not sure how long I will be there. Am ready to get away for a bit and see friends. No big plans tho she tells me their's a shaman of sorts there, would be interesting to see what that would entail. My dad seems to be in a better place. He started working again this week so he's not been drinking as much. I think he realized he can't drink it under the table forever, we didn't get a chance to really talk but I can tell a lot by his mood.
I didn't post about it I don't believe but my brother and I got into a big heated argument last Wensday on the 4th of July. For what ever reason he got mad (which he does over problems that most are not aware of) and then wouldn't talk to me about why he was mad. He was there at our grandparents place suppose to be helping with some of the heavier tasks around the house and hanging out with grandpa. Well he had to bring his GF. He went out to shoot bottle rockets and was in a fine mood when he walked outside. 10 minutes later he comes in acting all pissed off but not really telling me why. I've seen this a few times so I just let him do what ever he wanted. It was about 10:30 at night and he starts packing his car with his and his gf stuff. What ever they talked about outside he just got pissed off about. We talked before they had went outside about how long we needed to hang out at grandpas and I had asked if they were going to a bar-b-que my dad was thinking of having on Saturday. Apparently he tells me that he was pissed because both me and my dad was trying to get him to leave my grandpa. Which I didn't say I just asked if he was going to the deal. My grandpa has seen him do this before but it still gets him upset to see me upset. Outside my brother went off on me and said I was a "money grubber" and went all ballistic, hitting a pole. I said I was DONE and went back in the house, told his gf if he wanted to talk to me again he'd need to seriously think about what he's said and that he owes me a huge apology. They ended up leaving and driving back to their place. So that's been on my mind. Haven't heard from him one way or another since.
Then the mystery text msgs from douchbag. I think I handled it well. Deleted them yesterday off my phone and low and behold he sent me another tonight. Asking what I was doing and again I just didn't respond and quickly deleted it off the phone. I am not going to engage. I have nothing left to say to him at this point.
On a brighter note I went shopping today. Went and spent $118 at Gordman's on 4 dresses, 2 necklaces, 2 sets of earrings and some new perfume. Got my daughter some cute earrings as well. I went to walmart to do the car stuff and bought a hair dryer (I've never bought one) and a new brush, some new toiletries like razors and some "extra care" stuff like hair gels and stuff. Don't normally get all into that but decided it's about time to look a little better each day for myself no one else. I got lost in Gordman's stuff, the have tons of cute stuff with peace signs on it and my daughter is getting into it. I wanted to do some more shopping but I think I will have to wait on that.
I've been trying to keep on everyone's journals and comment when I can. Been so busy running around and taking care of things. I hope eventually I will be able to calm down again and keep more up to date and more inspired to write on topics. Been kind of the up and down. For the most part it seems I can think clearly but am hesitate to reply too much. Hope all is well with everyone this week!!
I didn't post about it I don't believe but my brother and I got into a big heated argument last Wensday on the 4th of July. For what ever reason he got mad (which he does over problems that most are not aware of) and then wouldn't talk to me about why he was mad. He was there at our grandparents place suppose to be helping with some of the heavier tasks around the house and hanging out with grandpa. Well he had to bring his GF. He went out to shoot bottle rockets and was in a fine mood when he walked outside. 10 minutes later he comes in acting all pissed off but not really telling me why. I've seen this a few times so I just let him do what ever he wanted. It was about 10:30 at night and he starts packing his car with his and his gf stuff. What ever they talked about outside he just got pissed off about. We talked before they had went outside about how long we needed to hang out at grandpas and I had asked if they were going to a bar-b-que my dad was thinking of having on Saturday. Apparently he tells me that he was pissed because both me and my dad was trying to get him to leave my grandpa. Which I didn't say I just asked if he was going to the deal. My grandpa has seen him do this before but it still gets him upset to see me upset. Outside my brother went off on me and said I was a "money grubber" and went all ballistic, hitting a pole. I said I was DONE and went back in the house, told his gf if he wanted to talk to me again he'd need to seriously think about what he's said and that he owes me a huge apology. They ended up leaving and driving back to their place. So that's been on my mind. Haven't heard from him one way or another since.
Then the mystery text msgs from douchbag. I think I handled it well. Deleted them yesterday off my phone and low and behold he sent me another tonight. Asking what I was doing and again I just didn't respond and quickly deleted it off the phone. I am not going to engage. I have nothing left to say to him at this point.
On a brighter note I went shopping today. Went and spent $118 at Gordman's on 4 dresses, 2 necklaces, 2 sets of earrings and some new perfume. Got my daughter some cute earrings as well. I went to walmart to do the car stuff and bought a hair dryer (I've never bought one) and a new brush, some new toiletries like razors and some "extra care" stuff like hair gels and stuff. Don't normally get all into that but decided it's about time to look a little better each day for myself no one else. I got lost in Gordman's stuff, the have tons of cute stuff with peace signs on it and my daughter is getting into it. I wanted to do some more shopping but I think I will have to wait on that.
I've been trying to keep on everyone's journals and comment when I can. Been so busy running around and taking care of things. I hope eventually I will be able to calm down again and keep more up to date and more inspired to write on topics. Been kind of the up and down. For the most part it seems I can think clearly but am hesitate to reply too much. Hope all is well with everyone this week!!
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Wow - seems you are doing awesome :) Way to go girl!
I can relate to the \"not spending money on myself\". I have yet to own a hair dryer :P (it has been in the planning stages, but I can\'t settle on a hairdo I am happy with and the current one doesn\'t exactly require a hair dryer.) I rarely wear makeup and I rarely take the time to take care of my body (ie. shave.)
I hope all is well for you despite your brother. I had my brother cut me out of his life only because I was friends with someone he hated (our mother) - it can be painful. But I guess the bottom line is to remember to not take it all too personal and understand that they are making more of a statement about themselves.
Anyway, thanks for sharing :) Lots of positives it sounds like. You are standing your ground and taking care of yourself and the people who matter :)
Yay, good for you for deleting and being strong by ignoring them and deleting them, VERY PROUD of you -- that is so hard to do :) And good for you for indulging in yourself a little, you deserve the treat!
Thanks guys. Yeah it\'s hard to indulge myself. I used to feel pretty guilty about it but I wasn\'t feeling too bad yesterday, the dresses were really cute and I got them for a good price so I was sort of excited, lol.
I do semi wonder why douchbag is trying to get a hold of me but seriously after 3 months when the last time I talked to him he went off on me about how pathetic I was and referred to me as a slut? He still has the same home phone and emails, if I wanted to talk to the a-hole I would have contacted him by now. --shrugs--- Oh well another new and beautiful day :) Thanks guys for the support!!
Don\'t waste too much time or energy on the \"why\" with him. Just keep deleting and ignoring. It\'ll drive him nuts. :-)
lol Livndadrem that\'s what I keep telling myself. That last one I got was on my phone literally like 30 seconds and then I was like I don\'t need it so I just deleted it. Knowing that I\'m not letting it really get to me or even reply back to him is probably bothering the crap out of him.