What on earth!?!
I have no idea what is happening with me right now. I have missed two days of work, for 3 days I have to get a doctor's cert and its as much effort to get to the doc as it is to get to work, so am at work today. I should be home, struggling to make it to lunchtime.
Trouble is, I don't have a firm handle on what's happening with me. I'm not in pain, not particularly tired, but something is very wrong. Felt it on Monday, head just did not feel right. Went to the doc, got him to prescribe anti-depressants (btw have to filled the prescription yet..since as usual I promptly lost it. Found it this morning so will fill later). Crashed at work Tuesday, Wed I knew I was just not up to working. Slept thru the day, woke up Thusday still otu of it. Slept through the day again. Still feeling crappy today but forced myself out of the bed. Feeling the physical stress with sitting upright, stumbling when I walk,vision a bit blurred, having a really hard time focusing. Touble is I'm not sure what brought on this crash.
I think I might be having a depressive episode. Can't be sure because am not feeling depressed, have none of the negative emotions etc. Doc put me on Plaquenil in Nov and immediately I started havign wild mood swings, wanted to cry for no reason felt sad all the time ..was definitely having depressive symptons. Doc insists depression is not a side-effect of Plaquenil. He prescribed some vitamin B12 which calmed the DE symptoms. But since then it feels like I flatlined, my creativity is gone, my passion, my motivation. I am generally apathetic and don't care much about anything. I have been neglecting my personal care, care of my surroundings and my work. I've been having a really hard time focusing on anything. There is a part of me which is aware and wants to break free, but it just feels like a blanket is enfolding me, smothering the very life out of me.
Came off the Plaquenil just over a week ago but symptoms have steadily worsened. I feel like I can't think straight enough to make key decisions about my care right now. Been to the doc twice since last week. Not feeling any sense of progress there. Not sure what to do next...
Maybe this is not depression.. the feelign of wanting o cry is well earned. This sucks!
Trouble is, I don't have a firm handle on what's happening with me. I'm not in pain, not particularly tired, but something is very wrong. Felt it on Monday, head just did not feel right. Went to the doc, got him to prescribe anti-depressants (btw have to filled the prescription yet..since as usual I promptly lost it. Found it this morning so will fill later). Crashed at work Tuesday, Wed I knew I was just not up to working. Slept thru the day, woke up Thusday still otu of it. Slept through the day again. Still feeling crappy today but forced myself out of the bed. Feeling the physical stress with sitting upright, stumbling when I walk,vision a bit blurred, having a really hard time focusing. Touble is I'm not sure what brought on this crash.
I think I might be having a depressive episode. Can't be sure because am not feeling depressed, have none of the negative emotions etc. Doc put me on Plaquenil in Nov and immediately I started havign wild mood swings, wanted to cry for no reason felt sad all the time ..was definitely having depressive symptons. Doc insists depression is not a side-effect of Plaquenil. He prescribed some vitamin B12 which calmed the DE symptoms. But since then it feels like I flatlined, my creativity is gone, my passion, my motivation. I am generally apathetic and don't care much about anything. I have been neglecting my personal care, care of my surroundings and my work. I've been having a really hard time focusing on anything. There is a part of me which is aware and wants to break free, but it just feels like a blanket is enfolding me, smothering the very life out of me.
Came off the Plaquenil just over a week ago but symptoms have steadily worsened. I feel like I can't think straight enough to make key decisions about my care right now. Been to the doc twice since last week. Not feeling any sense of progress there. Not sure what to do next...
Maybe this is not depression.. the feelign of wanting o cry is well earned. This sucks!
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