what is your kyrptonite?

just wondering what your kryptonite is........made it to Bible Study Wednesday night....afterwards i went to get oranges.......and drove by the bakery department. they had krispy kreme donuts. 
if you are not from the south.......let me clue you in.......they are round luscious delicious bits of pastry.  some are called donuts, some eclairs, (and more, much much more).but all types are delicious and make you think you've gone and died in fried hot fresh yeasty donut heaven......they are some kind of good, heck, who am i kiddin' ........they are all kinds of good!  they are addicting and wonderful and well you get the idea.
the ones i spied were filled with delicious vanilla pudding and topped with chocolate frosting.  oh my............kept on going, then hit REVERSE and brought home a six pack of these bad boys.
stared at them through the little plastic window in the fresh clean krispy creme box........all that yumminess right there, just a lid lift away from crazy town........my kryptonite.  i did it.  i told myself i could eat just one.  i am strong.  a can do kind of girl.....but no.  uh uh.  before i knew it two were missing.......and a third one was in my greedy paw.  bakery catnip.......i went mad.  eating half of my stash in one sitting. 
it's no wonder that i was seeing orange lights the next morning.  i have been good for a long time, limiting my chocolate intake, which is not always easy.  when you enjoy a treat......treats are sweet and comforting and delicious.........yup, orange lights on the floor, the walls, my eyes were doing that goofy shaky dance thing in my head.......and the back of the brain was in pain. 
sinning with kryptonite.......it was so good.  so the next day i cut off the part that had chocolate on it.......and had another one.  we now know with all certainty that we can't have them in the house.  one is the limit.........and not to be had for many moons.  must spend time in remission without krispy kreme kryptonite.
there is an actual store with a drive through krispy kreme window about 20 minutes from my house......you walk in and you see the fresh glazed donuts rolling off the belt.........that oooey gooey fresh baked treasure trove of incredible high caloric migraine triggering simply irisistible southern favorite donut house sins........the smell will bring you to your knees.........a fresh glazed donut hot off the donut making griddle (so to speak)......the glaze still forming, it's warm, it's shiny, it's perfectly made.....it's so good to be human and about to experience this donut madness.  it is bliss.  b l i s s  . .
it can turn non donut lovers into believers.  it's so good.
that is why i never go there.  not inside and not through the drive through, that is why the donut devil found a way in.......they got them inside the door of my grocery store.  this is gonna be tough.  i have to resist............in all honesty now that i have sinned with a six pack of these devils i feel that i can be good again for a long time.  at least until Valentine's Day.......!
thanks for you.......truly thank you.  first time for me to be up and around since Wednesday night.  i mean up, dressed, doing house mouse detail......actually making a crock pot meal.  got a small roast on sale......making it with long skinny carrots and two humble taters cut into long skinny tato fingers.  added classic coke......mushroom soup, lots of spices & set the switch on high.  should be dinner delight by 4 pm. 
if you're in the neighborhood, come by and i'll make you a blue plate special.  another diner thing......i actually have blue plates. so it's a double funny, not hilarious, but still sort of f u n n y....ok, so it's not stand up ha ha ha's, but i am trying to be beyond my sick self......for a little while, that is the main thing. 
keep praising yourself for all the little things you do.........for all the ways you take care of your life.......cover yourself in awesome sauce and say good on me!  no i don't have a clue what awesome sauce is or why anyone would cover themselves in it......but who cares.......let's be silly, let's do the hip wiggle dance............i am going to make crazy faces with colored pencils.  play art girl for a while.....my glands are so M A D .  my face hurts from the cfs gland attack.  my hips are pissy at all get out, never sure what is fibro and what is arthritis at times like this........but i already know that someday i will be having a hip replacement on my left side first.........then my right.  all that skating. basketball, hiking, bike riding.....life and one too many car accidents, not to mention the A word (a-ging) catch up with a body. 
i had another weird dream, i was in a squad car, an old black and white......riding with my partner......we were in street clothes.  the world looked very bright......the colors almost fake they were so perfect and so ripe, so rich.  hard to explain, but the dirt looked extra dirty, the clouds extra fluffy......the road extra gray asphalty.  not animated, but overly done somehow.  things were topsy turvy.  houses were being built and yet toppling over simultaneously.  holes were opening up in the earth and huge buildings were being swallowed whole.  the ground was fractured in places......and yet the sky remained this perfect blue with a sunny golden orb making life seem like just another day in paradise.  it was so not paradise........the radio was bleeting news of all sorts of mayhem.  looting, fights breaking out......the roads were worsening rapidly, the bumps were throwing us around, a roll bar appeared in the squad car........and suddenly we had helmets on.  bizarre........but safe.  is this a nod to the mother in me i wondered?
the other thing?  the world was arranged oddly.  a house next to a gas station next to a church next to a covered bridge next to a big red barn next to a hair salon next to a bait shop........and so on.  it was all wrong and yet there it all was.......being built and being destroyed in constant motion......it would speed up and slow down, but it never stopped. 
weird, when i woke up i thought gotta switch up what i am watching, too much charmed is too much charmed.  it is a teen agery show.....very silly.  not ha ha funny but funny still.  sara texted me that her new best friend is vapo rub.  the doc gave her a z pack and an inhaler for her bronchitis.  poor baby, she is taking it easy.  sam is doing a lot better, still recuping, but managing his life by resting more.  this tells me he is not well cause he is not by nature a rester.......he only rests when he can't do more. 
so much the way i was.......and still am in my own limited way.  my ears hurt mom.  fix it.  make it better.  sneezing.  headache.   you wouldn't think a two hour trip outta the house could do this to a girl, but it soooo can.  by the time bible study ended i was so glad to get off that wicked hard chair.  i was  walking funny all the way to the car wishing i had brought my cane in.  i was leaning over, unable to stand up straight, pain in my intestines and in my back.....you.   i felt yuckeo should go homeo.......but because of that i thought better get some groceries while out cause you're in a flare.  so that is what got me to the store, the oranges of pink naval happiness and that bakery kryptonite. 
also got good healthy stuff too, it wasn't only a sugar sin episode in that store. just sayin'.......didn't want you to think i only got treats. ----also got some proper nutrition.  sigh, sucks being a child with an outer grown up exterior.......the grown up exterior forces me to make good food choices --- and ok, yeah, i'm glad most of the time.
the bad choices negatively impact function and this is a lesson hard learned.  if we put good fuel in, we feel better.  at least in my case that is a very true thing.  lots of good protein mixed with fresh fruits and veggies is a good life food plan.
p.s. not seeing orange lights anymore......used to see bright yellow lights before when i used to get migraines all the time......the orange lights is new.  and freaky.  glad they are gone.
 
.......sending out love..........and to say i loved your shares........it really cheers me up. makes me feel semi human..........birds are singing out side the window.......makes me think of spring.  such a happy song.......it's 46.....blue skies and sunny outside sparrow cottage.  hugggggs!