What I have to do.

Well I just realized what I have to do to get thorugh this life. It isn't to give up or anything like i've been doing. I guess I tricked myself into thinking that I was trying. But, I haven't ben trying for a long long time. I need to get over this way I feel all the time. I have to change the way I think about myself because I need to. It stresses other people out just as much as it does to me. There is alot of things about myself that I have to work on and it might take me years to get over this. I know that it's gonna take a long time. This isn't gonna be in a few weeks or months I know that. I just need to change my way of thinking about a lot of things I think about myself.