What have I learn on this journey

What I have learn on this journey. I learn that I'm not invicible. I learn that I need help and support and love and that even I can't do it alone. I learn that in the cm punk as I portray is just that just an act. I trying to save my soul but I can't save it alone. I can't save it. Only God can save it. A divorce is a life changing situation. It changes you to the point that you think you are the worst person in the world. i regret that I put my hand on my wife's throat. I regret that I couldn't control my rage my hate and anger to the point that I cross the line. Then I knew it was over. It was over  It is over. I don't know what my next part of my life will be but I know that I don't ever want to return to the pain that I allow to just linger and build in my heart. If this relationship ever going to be something with Trish. I do not want the pain that the previous relationship had. I don't want the mistake I made. To repeat and to manifest.