What do to deserve this?

I spoke with sarah again today this evening. She was not happy.  I just dont get it anymore.  I am trying so friggen hard, and she still is acting crazy.  I asked her on wed if it was ok that i email her and text her telling her i was thinking about her and that i love her.  Also asked if i could ask her how her day was going and things like that.  She said that she didnt know.  When i asked her to tell me if she had a problem with it.  She said that she would.  I didnt hear anything from her yesterday or today.  When i asked her to speak with me today, she called and sounded upset.  I asked her how she was doing and she just blew up at me.  "You dont get to know how i am doing anymore will, we arent living together anymore, we are getting divorce, you just dont get to know anymore."  That hurt a lot.  i do care so much and am doing so much now.  What did i do?  I think more and more about my service, and start to regret it. i never wanted to hurt her.  I have done som much damage, and i am slowly stargint to hate myself over it. I had no clue trying to show her i care would uspet her.  SHe did not tell me that it bothered her or that she had a problem with it. I am so frustrated and confused. I am truly genuine in all of this, but nobody sees it. her parents have so much influence over her, they are totally against me.  They have not even said once that she should try to talk to me or fix this.  They just support her decision to leave like she always does. How is that fair? She now has an attourney for the divorce.  I cannot afford an attorney.  I am going to get screwed out of everything. I just dont knwo anymore. Why try? why continue? My world is crumbling beneath my feet just as it always does.  nothing i do ever mattered to her, at least it essms.  She has written so many letters to apologize over the years, but they dont mean anything.  She always is stating that she does not mean to run away, but yest she always does.  She has not ever stuck around to fix any problems. I am probably just rationalizing right now.  I miss her so much, but she doesnt seem to care about anything about me. liek she never did.  How can somebody say they loved you so much at one point, then rip your heart out the next minute.  Everybody is against me, for reasons that isnt totally my fault! Why?  What did i do in life to deserve this? I hate this crap. i want it all to end.