what brings us peace
I had an amazing day at work.
I was feeling weak and feckless at the outset -
I wrote a journal on the site and just tried to be positive and I persisted
in doing the work...my sense of loneliness and my need
welled up in me as a woefulness - but I kept going - I knew I had to take
care of myself and be self responsible, like everyone, but the need
was persisting...
I thought about how I have combated this woefulness
before... through an idea to me of "essential value"..
and I thought about god and how walking with god
in mind could help me cope with feelings of inadequacy
and fear... I realized we ALL have things that we seek
in order to bring ourselves peace - and that thought
kind of opened my eyes to being not only in a commonality and community
but also aware of others in a different kind of way.
It brought great consoling and gave me a kind of filter
that helped me feel ok and understanding as I worked and kept on keeping on.
So ultimately things are good! :)
thanks and sending peace,
Mark
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((((Marcos)))))
Sending peace back to you too
Gentle hug <3
thanks lil missy!
Good for you!
thanks sunshine!!
I know this may sound crazy but after I wrote the previous journal I was so appreciating the sense of
comfort I was finding in my time after work - with all these thoughts about
finding my peace - and everyone finding their peace -
I was feeling so comfortable that I didn't want to break or interfere with my coziness to do
anything that would be about putting my head up above the water line - I didn't have the strength or courage - which seemed weird but I kind of went with it and
then I rested/napped on the bed and I thought that I really needed bravery (I prayed for it)
and I decided I also needed like an image to fulfill in my pursuit of taking care
of all the stuff for moving - -
long story short I napped and woke up fresh and invigorated and able
to pursue cleaning things up here and organizing them -
maybe I just needed a nap - and yes after a vigorous morning
at work - maybe it's kind of understandable that I would feel
tired about getting started on an amorphous project
For some reason recording wisdom about these types of things
is something I wish I didn't have to do - but also for some reason
seems important - and good to share here on my journal -
Glad you had a refreshing nap. Once in a while we just need a nap!
for sure! :)
Ugh I just finished work after a sleepless night last night. I want to nap now at home but I will try to eat dinner and stay awake til a reasonable bedtime. A nap is an amazing thing and I wish it were more commonplace!
the **aha moment** in my own search for peace was realizing that peace is not something to find. it is an appreciation you open yourself to on an ongoing, minute by minute basis. it surrounds us daily. all i have to do is open up my heart, even (especially?) when i'm feeling the woeful aspects of my human nature. hate 'em or love 'em, a full range of emotions is part of human nature. gift or curse is up to each of us to decide for ourselves.
how 'bout some bellamy brothers?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzXz6-RXXgc
Thanks Nikki!! Thanks Arfie!!!