WHAT A MESS!

SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN WRITING!  I've been so crazy, happy, miserable, losing it... For the moment I found myself and thought to come in here.  yesterday I was wondering if I should commit myself.  I'm just feeling so out of sorts and just really oozy.  I'm scared to death of my schedule and what is goign on.   Oh shit! I just realized I forgot to take my meds today.  SHIT!  what a freaking life we lead