What A Guy!!! - Joseph

OMG!!! OMFUCKING G!! So Joseph is really pushing that I get some help. I didnt want to take Josephs money because I feel weird and we are still not together officially we are still dating. I realize what he meant by the title was just that, a title. It doesnt mean that the care for each other is different. Him being my boyfriend or not has nothing to do with him loving me and wanting me to get better.  I am taking his money and getting help TODAY!! I have a 4:30 appt today with Sherry and I am excited!! I am trusting my instincts when it comes to Joseph and him helping out with his share.I am not used to taking money from anyone not even my mom!! Every man I came across always had a problem and couldnt help me financially. I never asked them for anything anyways so that helped me out alot in depending on myself. Im not used to a man caring for me and putting me first on their list. It feels scary having to be the first priority in a mans life. I dont want to give too much of myself and get hurt in the end. I dont give men a lot of trust and dont give them a whole lot of true feelings so this is going to be TOUGH to let Joseph in. I pretty much NEVER had a man worry about me. NEVER! This is the first time I am feeling this care from a man and its just too much I feel like crying so bad. Im on my way to recovery though and thats the most important. I am going to give myself to Sherry and let her work out the kinks...