WHAT A DAY!

June 29, 2009 (Late)   I am sad.  Our rabbit, Hoppy, died.  We have had him a little over two years.  Okay...it is "just" a rabbit.  He was the honey color of the story book rabbits.  Melissa gave him to Adam shortly before Scott died. He was hardly a handful.  He helped, in more ways than you can imagine, Craig's grief, over Scott.  First of all, it was hard because it was a gift from Melissa, and she is gone.  Second, it was Craig's outlet.  He would baby that rabbit...talk to him, cry with him, etc.  We would gather clover for him, I would give him lettuce and carrots, we would pet him, and, we would always talk to him.   It is just another loss.....just a rabbit....but another loss.  Adam buried him behind the barn with our other beloved pets.  We knew he was not feeling well and we all got to "say our goodbyes".  Sounds dumb, doesn't it?  It was a rabbit!!!!!  But, we will miss him/her. (we were never sure of the sex) Chris, my oldest son, is not feeling well.  The doctor said his kidneys and liver are not working properly.  He went for more blood tests today.   I am very worried about him!  I hope all is well! I do know he has an ulcer.  Hopefully, that is the only thing wrong!  Adam had to go to court this morning over some stupidity, on his part, from October 2008.  It has been continued until August 4th.  I am so tired of the court house.  You, seriously, cannot imagine the hours I have spent there!  (Not on my behalf!) Finally, my father-in-law, who has been on the outs with Adam since November 2008, called and wants his help, with the farm.  Yea!  Adam messed up his grandpa's truck.  He (Adam)  is responsible.  His grandpa is really unforgiving.  I have not even been able to invite him over for dinner because of the bad feelings.  (Regardless, I can't have Adam feel uncomfortable in his own home.)  It has been a mess!  Anyway, this is a break through!  Baby steps......   And so, life goes on...such as it is.  I just don't get all the drama we humans create!  It is all such nonsense in the big scheme of things! One more thing...another very human thing.....a very BIG company is interested in buying our business  building in Springfield.  I sure hope they buy it!  We have been having to pay utilities, taxes, and insurance on it, regardless of it being empty.  And, our former tenant owes us a lot of money!!!  It would be a GREAT thing if this company would buy it.  They are big enough they could just write a check!   That would be such a load of our shoulders!  

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Some good news and some bad news in that lot! All contribute to the ups and downs we were referring to earlier. Never say \'just\' when talking about a pet. I understand the comfort they can be; actually two years is quite a good innings for a rabbit. Lydia bought Frazer two guinea pigs the Christmas before he died and they have become my living symbols of him... I dread the day something happens to them. I hope everything is ok with Chris and Adam\'s troubles sort themselves out, it sounds like the gesture from his grandpa is good timing. Good luck with the sale of the building, I\'ll cross fingers and toes for you!! Hugs, Charlotte.
JerryJsMom
JerryJsMom

There really is no such thing as \"just\" a pet, of any kind. They become part of our family and our lives. I am so sorry you lost this sweet pet that has meant so much to you and your family. So many things going on in your life right now, hon. I hope and pray all turns out well for Chris and Adam. And, I\'m sending positive thoughts your way (though this brain is weak lately) for the purchase of your business. Keep us posted. *Hug* Adrianne
biowoman
biowoman

Our pets become a part of our family...we love them, we care for them...we laugh at them...I am so sorry about your rabbit. The hard thing about pets is we generally out live them...so we know from the beginning that there will be loss. It sounds like so much else is going on in your life as well. Choose one thing to think about at a time...and the things you can\'t do anythig about...put them aside. I know it is easy to say and hard to do...but give it a try. Love to you...Karen
deleted_user
deleted_user

They might just be a pet but they are a part of our family. We love them just the same. Sorry about the rabbit. Hope that all goes well with the company that wants to buy the building. Have a great 4th and a safe one too...Hugs, Connie
deleted_user
deleted_user

Oh Hon, he wasn\'t JUST a rabbit, he was a loved member of your family!! Believe me, I know because I lost a beloved dog early last year and I was inconsolable. Oh, the tears that were cried into her coat and the things I had to tell her about her \"brother\" Jamie always called her his \"little sister\" he just adored her! I\'m so sorry that you lost him! On the other hand, it sounds like you have better news, grandpa is coming around! Yay!! Bad feelings make it so hard on everybody in the family! And, a possible buyer for your building, How great is that?? I hope and pray that it will happen for you! It is more than time for things to turn around! Love to you, Judy
BinkyH
BinkyH

I am sorry about Hoppy. And like everyone else said, you don\'t have to say he was \"just a rabbit\". Loss of life hurts. Just in different ways and degrees, I guess. I am thinking of how the loss of inanimate objects that I associate with my Michael would hurt me, such as his beloved leather coat. I cried when I gave Michael\'s shoes to my brother, who needed them. Like you said, Hoppy is another loss. Another ending. I think that after losing a child, future losses become more poignant to us. My thoughts and prayers are especially with Chris. And I hope Grandpa and Adam can rebuild their relationship. We know, all too well, how short life is to bother being caught up in the drama of it all. Love, Belinda
deleted_user
deleted_user

It just seems to pile up and pile up and keep piling up doesn\'t it? Sometimes I think I will just start screaming and never stop. It is an awful way to feel. Just try to keep up with the baby steps idea. That helps me. For a long time I expected way way too much out of myself, so naturally I always felt like I was failing. But I was expecting something no human could have done! I expected to be strong and take care of everyone and hold my grief to myself. I almost drove myself crazy. I am a grieving mother and I have had multiple losses. I also am disabled and I hurt everyday that I live. I hurt 24/7, it is worse some days than others. Give yourself a break.I care,love peggy
deleted_user
deleted_user

Sorry about Hoppy, our pets become part of the family, and a loss is a loss. I agree with Peggy give yourself a break and mourn the bunny you loved. I sure hope the family situation works out. Love and hugs Cathy