Westin

I really want to run away right now. I have nothing to do here and I simply want to go experience something new and different, but I don't want to do it alone. I want someone to come with but I know that every time I bring someone I feel really bad when they become unfriendly. And then sometimes I feel like I am using a person when I take them on trips like those. I am thinking of getting a room at the downtown Westin where they have a rooftop pool so it would be nice to lay out by the pool and then I can invite Rachael and Katie over for a swim and lunch and lounging and whatnot. Plus this is what we had discussed initially for Katie's birthday, some sort of pool and relaxation day. Unfortunetly this would mean that I would have to lie to me mom about where I am going to be spending the night and then as I am currently texting Katie she seems to be kinda hesitant to the idea. I am not expecting her to pay for the room, but just have a good time. I would only do it if Katie and possibly Rachael had the time to come and relax. I would need to get an early check-in so I am not wasting the day and I know that at the Westin the check out is a late one... at noon. Maybe this will be a way of escaping for a night even though I am bringing friends with me. Now, I just don't know what to do because I don't want to spend the money for no reason and waste my time and fill my mind with guilt and more depression. I know this is a simple thing and I am making it overly trivial, but this is simply the way things are processed.I'll write back later on.
 
Goodnight moon.