Went to get ONE thing from the grocery store ?!.. Yeah right !!!!

Well, he's been gone for about 2 hours now, to go get ONE thing from the grocery store. Granted, I realize it takes him time to walk there, and walk back. The thing is, he is a " super " fast walker. 

The only thing I can think of right now is that maybe he's waiting inside the store for the rain to ease up somewhat before he heads back to the apartment. That could be it. 

OR.... It could simply be that while he's been in the grocery store he's been talking on his cell phone to " whoever ", and that conversation is going on... and on.. and on some more ! 

That last possibility I believe has a very high chance of being the real truth. I call it the " real truth " because I know that if I dared to ask him why it took him so long, he likely would not tell me the 100 % truth about it. 

So... I sit here theorizing about what he's " truly " doing right now, while realizing that in the long run it really doesn't matter. After all he'll do whatever he decides to do, no matter what I say to him. My feelings, opinions, concerns, etc.., never come into consideration in his mind. That's been crystal clear for many years now, no matter WHAT he claims about his feelings for me. I know the real truth. 

The best I can do for myself at this point is to do my very best to stay in my own little world - doing whatever I want to do to have some " peace ", and enjoy life. 

The million dollar question is... " Will he allow me to do that ? Or will he continue to get in my face with his raging / unreasonable demands every time I try to do what I want ?! " .... 

Time will tell I suppose.

I will definitely continue to pray to God for guidance about this.... for HIM to show me the Path I need to travel on.... the direction I need to take, in order to regain real peace and sanity in my life again.