went to a party last night
I went to a party last night. It was good to see my friends from High School,
but as I was talking to one friend's husband my hands and drink's glass started to shake.
Not sure why I was so scared.
I met some people who were nice and were glad to meet me - and some others who seemed
to be put off by me.
Well, when I got home, the negativity I experienced seemed to weigh more in on my mind.
It was hard to sleep. Finally I found my sense of value again.
Thinking back on it now, I think what the 'ef' I think we all have to deal with licking our wounds at times. I don't know
or haven't heard from others who have bad experiences like this. Social events or interactions that shake your sense of self
and well being about yourself..but I guess I've got to just put it in a box, and leave it behind and focus
on the things and relationships that are doing well in my life. I am trying....
I also went to work today. I felt really lowly, perhaps as a residue of last night's event - but I am trying
to just keep on keeping on. Make goals and then deal with the complex of emotions that come with the
journey along the route of fulfilling them. I hear people talk about achievement but it's probably true
that along the way of manifesting those goals, there's a host of emotions coming at you from external sources
and also internal ones too. Just have to keep on keeping on. I am at home now and have to deal with my self.
I'll make lunch and then make a run to the pharmacy. Toujours L'amor. :)
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Hang in there Mark, you are a nice, and considerate guy. I think you are sensitive to other peoples feelings. I think thats a good thing. Trying to put yourself in other people's shoes is always a good practice to have.
thanks Chris!
Big hug for you sweetie...… I absolutely have a social anxiety now.... I used to be a social butterfly however I basically stopped going out due to caregiving for several years and now socializing is really hard for me so I hear you
I agree with Chris.... You are a great guy...… Another hug......xo
I applaud you for having the guts to go to the party in the first place. Try not to let the negativity you felt from some of the people ruin the experience you had with the positive. I can surely relate to your feelings and you are a great guy and friend.
I agree with SunCloud....I can socialize with people too much face to face. As I got older I have become more inhibited. I know I don't look as good, physically..so I am self conscience.... I know that I could have a physical defect and look worse, but still I just find myself physically un attractive. So thats one reason why I don't socialize.....
thanks guys!