went 2 c my therapist friday...

i love the fact that he gets me.
he says my h is addictted 2 his outside relationship; that as long as shes in his life he can ignore his issues
i find myself wondering y wldnt h b addicted 2 me? but he cldnt b im a part of his issues. lol
anyway therapist and i agreed that with a fulltime job, children, 1 on the way....thats enuf 4 me 2 b concerned about; that i shd stop being detective and accept that my h is not going 2 give me the answers i desire until he decides 2 examine himself and hes not yet ready 2 do that
so i nd 2 let go of my compulsion 2 know.
that maybe God will reveal 2 me what i nd 2 know and maybe He wont
but truly its not my problem
somehow at least 4 the days that have followed by appt ive bn gd
ive bn lighter and more calm
Praise the Lord
its so funny
when i get silent h wants 2 talk
prob he wants 2 talk but not about what i wanna know
anyway
me and the kids got a tree
it was great; they decorated it....it was nice watching them christmas music playing in the background...made me believe life will go on and we will still b a family
i was gonna do christmas cards. i usually make my own with a fam photo.  i was not sure if i shd make a card with me and kids so soon after separating. it may not be permanant
anyway just 2 tired.  im making baked mac and cheese 4 a party. didnt wanna stretch myself 2 thin. so im not gonna do it at all this yr