Welll, Anoter sat/sun night Agu 23/24, 2014

Well i am just now getting back on here, dont have HDMI cappability, bummer, really old monitor, had to hook up my little ipod speaker's to get sound. BUT IT'ALL MINE!!!!!!!!!!! Now that its in living room, i can use whenever i want. listening to music while typing. just had 2 egg's and 3 o 4 Pancakes. so i need to sit up for a while, so sleepy, but i know i cant sleep. Havnt slept  right for a while now. Can't sleep at night, but day, LOOK OUT. I'm so out of sync w/ the world, but i like to do things at night, not sooo hot. It's brutel here right now. like chicken noodle soup out there. I am not going out unless  i Have to. son can go if i need anything. stoked on cig's, etc.... I'M JUST WAITING FOR THE OTHER SHOE TO DROP,  going to try and see the doc soon. i think i really need to. i'm just not myself, not for a while. so much stress, i feel so hopeless allot lately, dont know exactly when it happened, but i think it DID. My confiedence is at an all time low, and i am so afraid, of what? I DON'T KNOW..... Can't wait to see s. worker, she can calm me and maybe i can see the doc or the N.P. something has to be done. This commputer REALLY HELP'S ALOT.... i am playing austrigh right now. REAL GOOD AT THAT. so its ok today i guess, ate too much, but wht else is new... ha ok think that's all i got for tonight, feeling very shy, will be back on tomorrow. Goin for the net flix......